Sunday, July 18, 2010

Maybe it's Maternal

I'm not sure why, but these days it REALLY, REALLY bothers me when I see people who know better making bad decisions. I'm not sure why. I guess it used to bother me before, but not to the degree that it bothers me now. I have enough to worry about without losing sleep over other people's transgressions. But here I am.

I think it may be the new maternal instinct in me now. I see people doing stupid things and I want to stop them. That simple. But it's really none of my business. I know that I shouldn't care, but that doesn't make it any better. I do still care. I just feel stupid for doing so.

So, now I'm left wondering how do I release these feelings? I hate having them, and they are not doing anyone any good. But they won't go away, it's really annoying. If I tell the person who I'm fretting about, I feel intrusive, bossy and nosy. But if I don't tell them I'm stuck where I am now. It's like a lose lose situation it seems.

I feel like one of the curses in my life will always be caring too much. I dwell on things, and care about things I shouldn't and it's sooo irritating. In my psychology class my personality was categorized as a "Blue". Someone who is sensitive, emotional, etc. It really does fit me to a tee. Except I don't want to be a "Blue" anymore. I'm tired of it. I think I'd like to try being a "Red" for a while. Not quite sure how to do that though. Maybe that will be my goal for the day tomorrow, to be more "Red" like.

As for Jimmy's car...no updates. Surprise!

4 comments:

Julia Everts said...

Are we twins? I seriously relate so much to this post. I also am a "blue", "blue-yellow" to be exact i think. Ugh. I guess we'll always be like that and someday we will be blessed for it, i hope! Good luck! If you come across any ideas you get on how to be less "blue" let me know!

Megan said...

I vote for a red day for you! I will call you and see how it goes!!!

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吳庭 said...

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