Sometimes it's still strange to me that I'm a stay at home Mom. After working for so long, and working stressful jobs none the less it's kind of odd to me when I think of what my days consist of.
Dishes. So so many dishes. How do we go through so many? There aren't even that many of us. Laundry folding. Baking. Attempted cleaning. Although now if it requires a lot of bending and such I don't clean it anymore. I see stuff all over the floor, Brynlee's favorite place to drop things and I just walk on by. Or crawl around on the ground and then try to find something to help me pull my awkward body back up to a standing position on.
Instead of worrying about making $6000 mistakes or someone getting stuck at the airport and me not being able to fix it I worry about whether Brynlee spends too much time watching TV. Or what we are going to eat for dinner because I feel like I make variations of the same thing every night and I'm TIRED of eating it.
After many attempts, I finally mastered the chocolate chip cookie. I could never get it right. The consistency would be off, or it wouldn't be chewy enough. I'd resorted to break and bake cookies. Now that I'm trying to be a home maker I thought I'd face my old nemesis. Ok it's just folliwng the recipe on the back of the chocolate chip bag right? It shouldn't be that hard. But for me it was. Well not anymore!
Next on my list, the sugar cookie. I'm really really bad at these. They are either too fluffy, or hard. Or just gross. This will be my goal, to make a decent sugar cookie.
After almost a year hiatus, I started crafting again. It's a lot of work, and time but I'd forgotten how much I love it. I'm trying to sell some of my crafts to help contribute financially. It's not going super well, but that's ok. It's a hobby I love and it gives me a sense of purpose when I'm finished.
I WILL learn to sew. That's on my list too.
This new job is harder than I thought to be honest. It's hard to feel a sense of self worth when you spend all your time with a 3 year old who doesn't seem to appreciate 98% of what you do. At least it's hard for me. To do a bunch of work with no paycheck. But that's the life of a Mom. We don't do it for the appreciation!
Waiting for James to arrive!
3 years ago