I always tease Jimmy about being the "tin man". He seems to show little emotion about things most of the time. Except on occasion some anger. I'm not sure how he does it, but it seems to run in his family soo... I guess it's a Cuillard thing? It's not that he doesn't feel things, he has just mastered the art of keeping it in check. Me, not so much.
Anyhow, I've never been so happy to have a husband who has his emotions under control. Since they constantly have to keep poking at my poor baby, I'm constantly in emotional distress. Whether they are moving her IV, or drawing her blood. After almost a week of it all I'm so done.
We've kind of gotten a routine now that Jimmy is present for all these un pleasantries so he can hold Brynlee, and then he calls me when they are all done. I mean me being in there sobbing doesn't really help anyone, right?
Jimmy was at work for the second spinal tap they had to do, so I tried to step up. I was sobbing so hard before they even started that the Dr said it would probably be best for me to wait in the hall. You don't have to tell me twice! You know it's pretty bad when the Dr is kicking you out...
So I went out in the hall and sat next to the security guard balling my eyes out. It was a bonding experience, he is now my favorite security guard.
She should be done with the spinal taps now though, thank goodness. I wouldn't wish that upon my worst enemy. Everyone keeps telling me that she won't remember this. However I'll be traumatized for life and so will everyone else who has been involved thus far. I guess Brynlee is the lucky one as far as that is concerned!
With regards to the traveling IV, it's now in her foot. So, we've had head, arm and foot. They said this vein is a really good one though, so hopefully it can just stay there and not have to be moved again. If it does, it's Jimmy to the rescue again!
Waiting for James to arrive!
2 years ago