Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Fever

Ok so I might have it a little bit. Just a little. Or maybe a lot. It's funny I never thought I would feel this way again. But I do. I'm starting to really itch for a baby.

Pre huge life changing decision of going back to school Jimmy and I planned to try to get pregnant again the beginning of next year. But after I quit and started school that changed a little bit. Not a whole lot, but it got pushed back a little. Having a baby in the middle of school would NOT be a good idea. I'm not sure how fun being hugely pregnant would be either. So we need to try to plan this a little.

The whole planning of having a baby is comical when you think about it. Just because we got pregnancy fairly quickly before doesn't mean we will get pregnant that soon again. You really can't plan. It will happen when it's supposed to. But we will start trying mid 2012. Or so. I keep thinking how fortunate we were to conceive Brynlee so easily. It's really not fair. Not fair to those couples who have been trying for so long. I feel like we just cut in line. And will likely cut in line again.

Mid 2013 will not be the most convenient time to have a baby either. Really there is not a convenient time. But we will make it work, because that is what we feel we need to do. This past while has really been a lesson in faith. I'm having faith that I'm making the right decisions with things. I'm not sure I've ever prayed as hard as I have about the recent decisions I've had to make. But I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed to. No matter how silly or illogical it seems. I've been called crazy before, and it for sure will happen again.

But right now I'm baby crazy. I look at Brynlee and I can't believe what a beautiful little girl my baby has turned into. It goes by so fast. You blink and they've turned from a baby to a toddler. I can't wait to do things better with the next one. Hopefully. I mean next time I'll have Brynlee to help me. Right? Oh that's not how it works...hmmm...

Here's to enjoying watching Brynlee grow into a wonderful little helper. And here's to enjoying the simplicity of one child. I'm sure the next one will be here before I know it, and I'll think back to how easy 1 kid was!


Audrey Spence said...

Isn't funny how you go from thinking I can wait for a while. It'll be fine to man I really want another one! That's how I felt. It all of a sudden just started to really get to me. Then I had to wait like a month to get my iud out then it took like 5 months to actually get pregnant. Which I am still amazed over. I don't know how the heck my body did it when I only had such long cycles (I think my longest was 50 or 60 something days) and my luteal phase was so short! (like 9 to 10 days as opposed to most women who are like 12-15ish days). I consider this pregnancy pretty lucky. I'm sure you'll know when the time is right. That's a decision only you and your hubby can make. And Brynlee could be a helper. One thing I can get Charlotte to do is help. She likes to feel important and needed. If we call it helping she's usually good about stuff. I'm really hoping she's gonna be my little helper soon. If Charlotte can work with a new baby I'm sure Brynlee will be a breeze :)

Heather and Spencer said...

Enjoy the time with just one! However, that being said, I love the time with 2 of them! There are good and bad days, but I love having Ryan walk in the room with out saying a word and kiss the top of his sisters head as I am rocking her to sleep. I love how he wants to share everything with her (most of the time it is things she cant have), but still sweet. Then there are the days when he wants nothing to do with her and she is just the annoying little sister...
I am sure Brynlee will make a great big sister when you feel the time is right to add another one to the mix!