Sunday, December 19, 2010

A Housewife's Ambitions

I used to laugh when I watched those Suave commercials where they show the mom with her hair in a ratty bun. Then she uses Suave and her hair is clean and shiny. The point of the commercial was that Suave was supposed to help those poor mothers out there who have let themselves go and have no time to fix it.

I remember thinking, how hard is it to keep your hair out of a bun? That itself is ironic considering from the age of 12-15 I wore my hair in a bun everyday. But that's besides the point. I had this unruly crazy curly hair, and didn't know what to do with it.

Anyhow, now I'm starting to understand those commercials. I'm blessed to be able to work from home, but to be 100% honest I don't like it. I'm not someone who can sit in the house all day and feel fulfilled. Any face book friends know there are quite a few days when I don't even bother to get dressed! I mean what's the point? If my only time outside is to check the mail, who cares? I love checking the mail now. I feel like one of those old retired people who sit all day waiting for the mail to come.

I feel my appearance slipping, and I hate it. It gives me anxiety when I think about it. I think about how I hardly every do my hair anymore, wear make up maybe 1 a week if that, and am pulling from my large supply of souvenir tee shirts to wear when I do in fact get dressed. And I only have 1 kid! What happens when the rest come?

Despite the vow I made to myself, a nice layer of extra padding still continues to reside upon my midsection. I keep telling myself it's baby weight, and that it will go away. The problem is the baby is 7 months old now. So that excuse is shot. And the fact that most days my exercise is running to my mail box ( hey in my defense my mail box is not right in front of my house, and I do run to it rather than walk because I'm excited for what awaits me inside the box) is my only form of exercise.

This is not how I envisioned myself looking as a Mom. Especially at 26 none the less. I always thought I'd be one of those "Cute Moms". The ones who wear stylish clothes, and stay in shape, etc etc.

Ok yes maybe I'm being a bit dramatic here. I'm lucky that most of my baby weight did naturally fall off with little effort. My weight is actually the same as it was pre baby, but the distribution of my weight is ALL wrong...

So things are not that bed, yet. But this is how it starts. Baby steps. If I keep going like this I'll be one of those Moms who takes their kids to school in a muumuu with curlers in their hair!

So, I'm setting a goal for this week ( we'll take 1 week at a time at this point). I'm going to get dressed, put on make up and jewelry ( oh boy, getting crazy here!) everyday. And not just get dressed in a souvenir oversized t shirt either! And, I'm going to go somewhere everyday. Not just the mailbox! I'll report in and let you know how it goes (I think I might of just lost some of my few readers at the idea of checking back to read about how my getting dressed everyday is progressing! :)) Wish my luck, day one is today!


Heather and Spencer said...

Make one of your daily trips be going to the park with us! And if Brynlee is only 7 months old, you still have time to get back to where you want to be. Think of it this way: 9 months in, 9 months out! It took you 9 months to get to the point where Brynlee was ready to be born, you have 9 months to get back to where you want to be!

Megan said...

You go girl! I think you will find as she gets older and if/when you have more kiddos you will go more places where you will want to be ready! I SO hear you on the weight thing....the scale says I am back to pre-baby, but I tell ya this weight sure looked a lot better on me five years ago!

Audrey Spence said...

I laughed when you mentioned the bun thing. Just got out of the shower and put my hair up in a bun because tomorrow I have a lot of laundry to do and floors to clean so I knew I wouldn't have time to do my hair. Too funny. I feel ya though. I love being home but I totally get excited for mail too. I even know the sound of the mail truck going by so even with all the windows and doors shut I can hear it. Yeah... sad. I've tried to make that goal though to get dressed earlier in the day and wear makeup more than once a week and when I am successful I noticed I feel so much better about myself so keep it up! I'm working on the weight thing too. I'm already pre baby but yeah... that means nothing... I was overweight to begin with! My goal is to be my pre baby weight when I'm 9 months... yeah... wish me luck!

racheyroy said...

is it bad if i have not be doing my make up for a few years now? ha. really though you look great! i work out like 4 times a week and still have a cushy middle. it takes forever. i understand wanting to get out of the house though. good luck!

oh and brynlee is so stinking cute!