This week has been a wild one. After much effort and debate, Brynlee started day care on Tuesday. Since August we have had a revolving door of people helping me take care of her while I'm working. They have all been great, but it just got exhausting. This way she has a steady schedule and lots of social interaction.
It seems to have been an easy transition for her, for me not so much. So far when I bring her there (yes I get stuck with the drop off, and Jimmy gets to pick her up...) she smiles and is happy as a clam to be around other kids. The first day I cried all the way to work, and at my desk for the first few hours of the day.
Leaving her is hard, and no matter how much I push it aside I still feel like a failure as a parent. I vowed to never put her in day care, and here she is. Even though I know it's only temporary, every morning I feel like I'm giving my baby away.
It has gotten better (no tears since the first day), but I'm wondering if it will every get easy. Probably not. For all you stay at home Moms out there, be grateful that this is a feeling you will never have to experience!
On a different topic, today Jimmy and I have been married 5 years. I can't believe how fast it's flown by. Tomorrow we are heading to San Diego for the weekend to enjoy some baby free alone time. We are going to the Wild Animal Park, and I'm so excited!
Waiting for James to arrive!
2 years ago