Silly Me

Well, maybe I've figured out why I can't sleep too well.

I think I'm getting sick! Or have some really bad allergies. This illness does feel a little different than it does when I usually get sick, so I'm not sure yet.

I'm losing my voice, and I can't take deep breaths right now. I feel like I'm going to pass out most of the time, and have 0 energy. As a result, my mood has not been the best. :)

So this combined with my ever running mind are not helping my sad sad sleep patterns.

I didn't want to boast, but I really thought I had somehow out smarted the flu bug. I got both the flu short and the H1N1 shot as well back in November.

And since then there has been illness swirling around me everywhere I go and I have been lucky enough to escape. Until now I guess!

Silly me I thought I was above the flu. So now, I'll just keep up my regimen of...water I guess? Not much else we pregnant ladies can take to get over a cold.

Last night as I lay awake at 3am ( that seems to be my time to wake up) Jimmy ventured into the kitchen to find some remedies for my woes. He brought back water, fruit snacks, saltines and cough drops. I love my husband. He is honestly one of the most caring people I've ever met. I drank my water and ate my fruit snacks. Somehow those are not the same as taking Nyquil though...

The cough drops tasted like I was sucking on a car battery, but they worked and I managed to fall back asleep in a somewhat timely manner. Do I feel well rested today? Um, no. Not even close. And I surely don't look it.

It's a strange feeling when you get to the point where you just don't care about your appearance anymore. Make up? Eh, who needs it?

The most surprising thing about pregnancy for me has been the waves it goes in.

I'll have a good wave, were I feel great and everything in life seems to be going well.

Then I'll get hit with a bad wave and I feel like I'm trying to juggle and people keep throwing more and more balls at me. At this point I feel like asking if anyone else has anything they want to lay on me? Why not. Come one come all!

I can't help but think the life waves and pregnancy waves must be related. A bad pregnancy wave means everything else seems bad too. Or a bad wave in life triggers a bad pregnancy wave. I wonder if any tests have been done to prove this.


Somehow through this "bad wave" I'm on, the baby's heart is still ok. I was terrified at my last appointment they were going to tell me it was beating way to fast again. But it seems to be ok for now. Whew. It’s amazing how I can be feeling the way I’m feeling, but the baby seems to be just fine. The human body really is an amazing thing, especially when growing a child!

Brain Pain

I've never had trouble sleeping before. I'm not sure how all of you people out there deal with it, because it sucks big time!

For the past while I wake up in the middle of the night and am just awake. I lie there tossing and turning for hours and hours and it's miserable.

The worst part is it's not a pregnancy thing I don't think. Physically at 33 weeks I'm feeling better than I did a couple of months ago (knock on wood). I keep thinking this is some cruel joke and keep waiting for it to go away. So far so good there.

But mentally. Mentally things are a little different (and I'm not afraid to admit it). Life is so crazy right now I wake up and cannot shut my brain off. Last night I woke up at 3am and decided to have a midnight snack. I think I finally fell asleep at like 6am just to be woken up by my blaring alarm an 1/2 hour later. Lovely.

Does anyone have any good sleep tricks they want to share? I've tried sleeping CD's. The problem isn't usually falling asleep, I can do that just fine. It's staying that way is where the issue is. Sleep deprivation is making me pretty desperate, so I'll try just about anything at this point. Troubled sleepers of the world, help me out!

More Than Just a Hair Cut

I have a hair appointment this Saturday, and I cannot wait. I wonder if everyone else gets so excited about getting their hair done.

To me it's like going to Disneyland. There is nothing like that feeling of leaving the hair dresser with perfectly groomed and clipped (in my case straightened) hair. When it comes down to it, she just gets my hair to do things that I cannot do (not for lack of trying or product).

Maybe part of it is that it's nice to be pampered.

I don't get massages, or manicures.

I do get my eyebrows done. But as my Mom who is my eyebrow buddy can assure you, burning hot wax ripping out hair is not exactly relaxing. Neither is the itching burning sensation my skin has for 3 days after I get them done. But once that all goes away they look pretty darn good! :)

I know when I get my hair done that I will feel good about myself that day, and I love that feeling. Being pregnant, it hasn't happened too often for me.

I've had about 1000 people ask me where pregnancy pictures are. I'll tell you, not here! I know pregnant women are beautiful. I'm not disagreeing with that.

I'm just saying that I don't feel too beautiful being pregnant. My ever expanding waist, combined with the rapidly rising scale is just the tip of the iceberg.

I've developed bags under my eyes that just don't seem to go away anymore. Rather than having a glow, my skin is pasty pasty white (to the effect that I've had people tell me how pale I am repeatedly).

Hearing things like "your face is filling out" and "I can't remember what it was like when you were skinny" do not help matters. No I'm not making that up; those are direct quotes from people (who will remain nameless).

I'm not complaining about these things. Growing a baby is hard work, and my body is doing a pretty good job I think. Especially based on what I've given it to work with during this pregnancy ( ie 10+ hour work days, little food nourishment in the beginning while I couldn't keep anything down, minimal exercise).

However she is 4 lbs 5oz already! So I'm growing her just fine. But it's understandable that this hard work is taking a bit of a toll on my appearance. So you can imagine how eager I am to get my picture taken at this time!

But with the help of my hair cut, and lots and lots of make up I'll take some pictures this weekend, hopefully ones that I feel comfortable showing everyone. Maybe some airbrushing will help matters. Anyone know how to photo shop?

Shirt Thief

I remember pre pregnancy thinking that I wouldn't have to buy too many shirts when I got pregnant. So most of my normal shirts are really long or blousy anyways, I thought I'd be just fine.

Ha, good one!

Shirts that used to be really long are now not so much. I have purchased several pregnancy shirts, but when I get home I like to lounge around. I’m usually in my PJ’s within 2 min of walking in the door.

Buying souvenir T shirts is my thing, so I've got drawers full of them. Everywhere I go I have to buy a T Shirt. Some are big, some are small. Some pretty ugly, but I had to buy it anyway!

I am thoroughly surprised though that none of them fit me comfortably anymore. Well they fit meaning I can put them on. But they are like belly tops now.

So I've started to raid Jimmy's closet for T Shirts. There are a few that I've stolen from him, but I'm rapidly out growing those too. I guess Robbie is next? Hope he is not surprised when he finds a couple of his T shirts missing...

The Sun is Shining!

As you poor East Coasters are getting pounded with horrific weather, we in Southern California have had a nice taste of spring!

It's been sunny and warm for the past 3 days, and looks to stay this way for the rest of the week. Ah. It's times like this I remember why it's good to live here.

I learned that painting my toe nails while 31 weeks pregnant is no easy task. I'm really weird about my toes, so I think even another female was around who could paint them for me I would rather do it myself.

I don't like my feet being touched by anyone.

After trying to have a "relaxing" pedicure several times, I just gave up. There was nothing relaxing about it in my opinion!

As my 26th birthday looms around the corner, I am starting to really feel older.

I realized that Relief Society is my favorite part of church now. I never thought that day would come, but I find myself sitting in Sunday school watching the clock until its Relief Society time.

I see kids these days with their crazy 70's style hair and tight pants and just wonder what is going on. I guess that is attractive to some? I just don’t get it. If you are a boy and your pants are tighter than mine, we've got issues...

When Jimmy and I went shopping the other day, I had him try on this pair of men's red super skinny jeans. He is a good sport about stuff like that. He could barely get them on, but once he did oh boy. I was laughing so hard I had my first pregnant woman piddle incident. It was totally worth it though!

People in my house are surprised to see me out of bed past 9:30pm. I'll blame that one on the pregnancy I guess. I became anemic and starting taking iron supplements though, and those have really helped with my energy level.

Maybe I'll stay up until 11pm one night this week. Watch out, wild woman on the loose!!